Remember at the beginning of the year when we were all so excited to have the best 2018? Yeah, me too. Also, remember how I wanted to be transparent with everyone? Well, I wanted to share what’s been going on in my life and the life lessons I’ve been learning.
P.S. I’m sharing pictures of the best moments I’ve had lately, just because they are so good. Starting off with the man who puts up with my hot-mess self.
Before I get into all this, I want you to know this isn’t a pity party. This is just a journal of how life works. There are always highs and lows. Also, people don’t talk about growing up and being on your own and how hard it can be to get through those life lessons. So I’m writing this to share what I’m going through and if it sounds familiar, I hope that this comforts you. Whatever you’re going through, or if you’re in the best season of your life, you’re not alone.
Anyways, the year started off really great. Then about 10 days in, life turned upside down and I was forced to learn a life lesson. I don’t want to be super specific, but just know I pride myself on being successful and pulling my weight in all aspects, and that was gone. At first, having freedom was great. A month into it, I was struggling to even get out of bed and brush my hair.
When people say “you’re your own worst critic”, I can 100% relate. I felt worthless because I didn’t know what to do with myself. I struggled to be a good wife and friend and hated that for myself and everyone around me.
But, there have been a lot of life lessons learned throughout this. I can’t say that I found my way out and I’ve discovered self worth without needing anything. However, I have been forced to step back and really understand just how lucky I am. This time allowed me to not just be another person rushing around with blinders on. I’ve really learned to appreciate all that I have been given and that’s invaluable.
The best part of all of this has been the ability to be there for so many moments with family and friends. I have been so blessed to spend hours and hours with my bestie’s sweet baby, spent more time with extended family, and just gained clarity on what is truly important. Growing my blog baby has been pretty fun too, here’s my favorite post lately.
I feel like people don’t share their true feelings enough. Honestly, I’m not the person that is just always wanting to share all my deepest thoughts, but there is something so comforting about sharing the not- so- good moments. Sometimes you forget that someone you admire is real and has learned life lessons too. P.S. my mom bought me this book a couple years ago and I’m making it my mission to read it and learn from it. Something I should have done a long time ago. Highly recommend.
So, if you’re having the best time of your life, bottle that feeling up and live in every moment of it. If you’re struggling with something big or small, step back, know your worth, and make that struggle your strength. It’s a lot easier said than done, trust me.